I just had a talk with my father, regarding my university application. And it ended up a heart to heart talk session.
He pointed out my weaknesses and how different I am from my brother.
And it only made me realised how weak and stupid I am.
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Im just not trying hard enough.
Too coward to face any failures.
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If there is any help that I need now, that would be giving myself a slap and wake up to the whole fking world that Im in.
Time to wake up my idea and change.
My life has been moulded into a wrong shape.
Im just asking for a second chance to mould it back.
i lost you,,
11:11 PM