fill my empty heart ;;

Pls.. Im not picking my nose.

Lol yea omg. Looks like Im back to Maple. Haha. But I have to say, it is only fun with friends around. Well, I shall talk much, because it is rather late in the night already. So I shall just post screenshots that we took. The camwhore time after all the training and stuff. lol.

Jeff disappeared out of the cave, leaving me and XX

We ate the forbidden fruits and became fat.

We decided to lose some fats. JUMP!

And we landed in a pit of sand.

The Shy Pork.

The FINGER of death.

The real us.

The real real us. Desperates.

Jeff just wanna remain fat and ps us, to be with the princess.

Rawr!

Lol. Yea. Some of the crazy screenshots that we took last night. Haha. Anyway, I think Jan is going crazy over Maple and think he is gonna become a Maple fanatic soon. Lol. He was spamming me with all the MMV(I dont know what it stand for, but my guess is Maple music video) about Maple! But well, some of them are nice. And I like this one in particular! So allow me to share with you great friends out there! Old school song... But its kinda cute. Hahaha. The ending is... stupid though.

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1:49 AM

Well, I guess after this short ride with the company just for these few days, I think Im pretty much stopping here already. Why? I have seen the things around, I have gained the knowledge of what their business is like, I have seeked advice and opinions from various people, and gained exposure. I pretty much gained what I wanted. But I think the major lesson here for me, is about decision making and self confidence. I have seen the importance of self-confidence and realised how frequent I have to make decisions and the significant impact of it.

In any case, I am thankful for what they have taught me. And I like this quote this man who was talking to me about optimism.

"God gave us eyes infront because He wants us to look forward.
He did not place them at the back of our heads simply because He do not want us to look back."

Amen to that :P

I guess I have to head over to Recruit Express soon. LoL. Got to try to find new jobs. Well, less complicated jobs.

"So you have heard stories and went there and experienced it yourself. So what is your decision?
You have listened to their story but saw a different light of it. So what is your decision?"

Perception and Decision.

P.S Lol Thanks Jeff for finding the song title "Star Guitar by Shinichi Osawa"..

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2:16 AM

Happy Birthday Sihua! =D

We celebrated Sihua birthday about two days ago! Yep, went to MindCafe, dine at Sushi-Tei and lastly clubbed at Home Club.. Dinner was good at Sushi-Tei! I have to say the sashimi is really nice! And my first time tasting sea urchin... mmmm... tasty but a little wierd! But I still like it! Went on to Home Club after dinner. More crowded than the other previous times that we've been there. Although the some of the ang moh there were really sick in the mind. lol. Okay, I wont go much into details about what happened that entire day. You can look up on the details on Jeffrey blog. When you need anything detailed, you can trust on him and his blog. Haha.

Haha. Anyway, I've been rather busy somehow with the new job that I have. Well, I dont know if it is really my new job because Im still considering whether I should join but Im gonna have my first appointment tomorrow. Lol what the bird eh?. Honestly, I am still skeptical, doubtful and suspicious about them(Well, Im sorry). Because I have heard and read a number of negative stuffs about them, and also some of the things that I see around.

Well, enough of that. Things arent that bad totally. On the bright side, I've made new friends! Haha. Namely, Dominique from VJC and Joel from TPJC. They joined on the same day as me. So yea, maybe thats why we clique(Probably because we share the same sentiments too). Yea, of course I do make friends with the people working there too la.

As some of you may have know, I have pretty much taken interest in both photography and photoediting. Well, I think Im more interested in photoediting anyway. I guess that is where my passion lies too. I've been looking at photos at Flickr.com. Yea. I think its a really cool website to be fascinated by the beauty of some of the places on earth that are being captured. And interestingly, I have also learnt something called High Dynamic Range Imaging from there. Im still a novice but well, Im still learning more about it. Here is my first try on HDR imaging thru photoshop. Not the professional method though.

Before 'HDR Imaging'

After 'HDR Imaging'

Yea, you guys can guess where this photo was taken. I think it is super easy for this one anyway. Haha. Well, I think you can see what is the difference there yea. So what do you think? Cool? It is just like a change in colour isn't it? Haha. I know I may not be as good as the other professionals out there anyway but bear with me, Im just someone new and interested in it. LawL..

=P. I just gave my brother a history lesson about WWII! He saw the Valkyrie movie on the newspaper and was curious about Hitler. LOL. So I just told him from what I learnt from my history book, my Band Of Brothers book, all the WWII movies and WWII games(see the benefits of gaming, like COH?). Now I think its really cool to learn history. Haha. Can spam all the knowledge from the history book.

Okay, I guess I have to turn in soon. I've been lacking sleep.

You are my lonely valentine.

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3:59 AM

Twilight.

Gee.. I swear this photo of the sunset would have been so damn beautiful if I've got a damn good camera back then. Pfft.. How freaking wasted. :( Now its beauty is being wasted just like that. Hahaha. Anyway, who can guess where is this photo taken? Haha.

Anyway, I found the old photos again... Those from my previous phones, Samsung V200 and Saumsun E730. And im kinda laughing my ass off for the photos that were taken in the past. Lol. Feel like posting them up... Maybe some other day. Hahaa. Man.. Now im kinda missing back the secondary school days. Seriously man. I think those days were really fun.. Now i feel so old.. shiat man.

Sigh. I really hope I get the job at Robinson. Or else I've got to continue searching for job again. How boring. They better call me soon!

Anyone remember when was this?.. haha. It's 40th Anniversary man! One of the most memorable time in my life in TKSS.. Yea.. I remember those days and nights, where the multimedia team have to work overnight in school to rush finish the video.. And also all the rehearsal and working with the professional AVA crew members. So much cool stuff! The lightings, speakers and gadgets.. I still remember how screw up it was, when two lightings blew on the day of the final performance. XD.. And of course I still remember all the manual labour and scoldings my AVA team member gets from all kinds of people.. But we always endure didnt we? And at the end of the day, we still feel the accomplishment and the joy that it is finally all over.. Those were the days man. Hahaha.. Ok sorry sorry, think Im talking too much about last time.. Im just reminiscing the past now after looking thru the photos. Haha...

As I watched the sunset, it reminds me of where I want to be and who I want to be.
It was the two of us, but now Im left alone to watch the light fade into darkness.

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4:55 PM

Now, who can guess where is this place? Heh.

Anyway, went to watch Underworld 3: Rise Of Lycans today. Interesting story, but the fighting scene and all is like as good as seeing nothing. Too much bright flashes and swinging of the camera. Yeap. 3.5/5 stars

I went to see the doctor too! And guess what he says about my cough. He said it was nothing serious and it is just in the blood. LoL? What the bird. But yea, he later explain more about it and stuff, because of the genes in my paternal side of the family. Yea. So not only Im going to have slow recovery rate, Im gonna fall ill every now and then. Just great...

Oh yea, before the movie, we went to Ben&Jerry at Cathay to lepak because they have local bands playing there every saturday night(It used to be every friday night). And cool.. This trio actually sang pretty well! Especially their last song, which is composed by themselves too. Recorded it but the sound is so muffled and distorted and whatever man. So yea, not gonna upload it.

Alright, Im real tired now.. Imma gonna go off the bed..

Don't you hear me say,
don't throw me away?

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5:30 PM

Dammit. I've been waking up at random timing in the middle of the night because of my cough. Which is such a pain in the ass. And because of my cough, I've been waking up early too. Wham..

Anyway, to all the BF1942 fans out there! EA has annouced the release of BF1943:Pacific! Awesomeness! Finally another WWII battlefield game. But I have to say, it didnt really interest me much from the trailer. Firstly, probably because there will only be three maps and they are all 24 players map. How pathetic. Thats like a great shrinking in number of players from the previous battlefield series. Its no longer a fun massive battlefield already. :( Secondly, from what I see from the trailer, the graphics did not impress me and it kinda look a little cartoonish to me. Man.. I really hope a remake of BF1942!!!... Well, anyway I hope this is not the rumoured BF3.. Because I expect more from it.. haha.

Bah.. And I cant allow the full preview of the song Unbeautiful by Lesley Roy because they simply dont allow it. So yea.. Just changed the song to 'It Ends by Faber Drive'. Dont know if any of you heard of it before. But I will just give some info about the song. If Im not mistaken, reading off from somewhere, it is a song that they came up when they were still playing in a garage band. This song was then later developed into their hit single "Tongue Tied" in their album "Seven Second Surgery". So yea, you actually can hear a slight similarity hearing these two songs. Cool huh?.

Anyway, here is the lyrics.

It Ends by Faber Drive

So clear silver moon,

wind moves through my room,

memories of Saturday (memories of Saturday).

Slight turn of her head,

eyes down when she said,

she's goin away, going away

I need to know this.

Am i the fool, am i a victim

I'd rather know,

you'd rather kiss him, good night, tonight, I'm blinded.

I try, I tried.

Is this the way, is this the way it ends.

Dark echoes inside,

can't sleep through the night

all the words i heard you say(memories of Saturday).

Fade over the yard, made under the stars,

stuck down in this place, hands on my face,

I need to know this.

Am i the fool, am i a victim

I'd rather know,

you'd rather kiss him, good night, tonight, I'm blinded.

I try, I tried.

Is this the way, is this the way it ends

Get up and chase the vision,

stand up watch the world go by.

ahhh ahhh.

You found, feel the reason.

Black clouds are filling up my sky,

ahhh ahhh yeahhhhh.

Am i the fool, am i the victim

I'd rather know, you'd rather kiss him

Am i the fool, am i a victim

I'd rather know,

you'd rather kiss him, good night, tonight, I'm blinded.

I try, I tried.

Is the way, is this the way it ends.

Am i the fool, am i a victim

I'd rather know,

you'd rather kiss him, good night, tonight, I'm blinded.

I try, I tried.

Is this the way it ends

I am a fool but not a victim.

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1:51 AM

Picnic at Siloso Beach

Lol.. Whew.. Im glad I've have downloaded the new brushes for my photoshop.. Its so cool!. Haha. Anyway, I've edited two photos today!. Both on taken 23rd Jan, but at different places. One at Sentosa and the other at Home Club. Again, by my novice skills, I tried out with the new brushes to edit. I think i need to edit them again.. The one on top.. It somehow looks to me like a poster.. lawl

Suppose to look for jobs today.. But, it rained and I kinda gotten lazy to bring umbrella and all. So yea.. I stayed at home. Hahaha.. Woo.. And while at home, I did this editing.. And also played with Voodooking(MrZul) CoH. HahAha. I have to say.. It was super awesome! Alas, a winning streak again.. The other time with CR was like.. losing streak for all the time he came my house to play.. I wonder is it because of the opponents we get? Or is it the difference in skills and teamwork between CR and Voodooking. Hah.

Blah. My dad is lecturing me everytime he comes home. How irritating.. Oh how irritating..

Anyway, here is the second photo.. Lol.. XX being emo. This one is kinda messy.. Whoops.. Bad job eh.

What can I do to say it's true,
for everything that matters

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5:05 PM

Lesley Roy - Unbeautiful

I love that picture of her. The photo edit and all is so cool. Lol anyway, I think her voice doesnt seem to suit her looks. Too hoarse for her pretty look. Haha.. In my opinion, she looks like Avril Lavigne but with Nickelback voice.. Dont you think? Lol.. But she is cool yo and her songs are pretty good.. Haha.

Ah dammit, my dad is seriously getting on my nerves.. Everytime he calls back home, or when he reaches home from work, he will come and lecture and scold me for wasting time at home. And say that I should be reading books and thinking of the future and blah.. Sheesh.. Irritated.

Unbeautiful by Lesley Roy

Don't hang up,
Can we talk?So confused
It's like im lost.
What went wrong?
what made you go?
Don't pretend you don't know
This is me
Im unchangeable

When did we
Fall apart?
Or did you lie
From the start?
When you said
Its only you
I was blind
Such a fool
Thinking we
Were unbreakable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
was it something that I did?
Cause I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful.

I've been told
Whats done is done
To let it go
And carry on
And deep inside
I know that's true
Im stuck in time
Im stuck on you
We were still untouchable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more.
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
Cause I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

Wake up, wake up, wake up
Cuz im only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now

Because we're much better
All together
Can't let go.

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
Cause I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?

Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful
Made me unbeautiful...

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1:33 PM

Edwin, Ms. Tan, Posh(?) and me!

Yay. Went house visiting to each other sec sch friends house yesterday, with an additional person, jeffrey. Haha. Firstly, Thanks loads to everyone and their parents for the accomodation they have offerred. Secondly secondly, sorry Ms Tan for being late!! Thirdly thirdly thirdly, why the bird didnt everyone take a group photo together? Lol. How wasted.

Overnighted at Jeffrey's house and woo... mahjong all night!. hahaha. Swee la!.. But no worries, no money is involved in it. LAwl.. Got a little lucky at the beginning, but kind of lost it later part of the game. Haha.. Beginner's luck perhaps.

Mahjong till morning 7+ and we played blackjack till like 10 plus before we went home.. Whew.. By then, I was already dying from lack of sleep.. I am still dying now actually.. Zzz.. I didnt really get to sleep much.. Woke up like 1+ because my maternal side of relatives came.. Ah goodness, was as good as a zombie walking around the house. Lawl.. Well, nothing much happened but we just eat and eat.. and played with my younger groups of cousin.. All of them are like in primary school level and lower.. Haha. Feel so old on my maternal side. Lawl.

Ah yes.. Just now I was damn birding pissed off because of my cousin. Yes this time, my little cousin who was tricked by roshan in the past. He was glued to my computer to the whole day, which is fine to me. But I have no idea what he was doing to my computer because I was entertaining the rest of my cousins. Then later, when everyone left, I go on my computer.. And what the bird? My wallpaper changed, my desktop icons disappeared, I cant find all my documents, pictures, videos, musics... everything! Like seriously? wthwtfwtb? By then, I was pretty much in a state of panic because all musics and photos are all gone.. But thankfully, I realised that it is still all somewhere in my computer.. and found out that my windows user account is corrupted/damaged and hence thats just a temporary user(Which explains there is nothing there). Like whew.. So now, Im just backing up and retrieving all my data right now. Tch.. Im still pretty pissed with my cousin anyway.. Dont know what he surfing.. surf until my user account corrupted. I should just ban him from using my comp.

Pfft. anyway.. Imma gonna go sleep.. My head is feeling a little heavy right now.. But before I go, let me just post photos of all the cute animals that I've met yesterday. LawL.

Poshy the lazy white dog.

Mochi the fat hamster.

Ocha the shy love bird

Jo(?) The missing dog who loves to hump Jeffrey.

Damn it.. Didnt take a photo of Sihua's dog..

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2:39 PM

Freak!. Seriously freak. I woke up freaking out! I say, I just had one of the worst apocalyptic dream ever! Maybe its the worst ever that I had dreamt of. But seriously.. shit man. It was a torment living in that nightmare.. I guess the F.E.A.R video took a toll on me. But I have to say, the nightmare was like L4D and F.E.A.R together.. Sheesh.. I met Smoker and Hunter in my dream. And also, instead of 4 survivors.. There were 5. But all died anyway. HAHA. I was one of them, and the rest were my honourable real life friends. I wont identify them. Man.. I guess I wont survive if really L4D happens in real life. The dream told me. hurhur... Anyway, I think it was year 2020 when it was the end of the world in the dream. Lol. Because I was in this room, and I saw this year 2020 calender along with many blueprints of gadgets in the room. Brr.. The atmosphere was creepy.. But I say the last part was the worst. Though I find it really funny. Well somehow. Because after all of us died(Thats the worst part). I then woke up at the spot where I actually died and this huge guy beside me say "you passed the test". Like LOL What the bird. And apparently after that, I paid the price for I dont know what reason and became a demon. One dark dream seriously. Not one that I will want to dream of everyday. Well, there are alot more but I cant remember some and I dont wana continue talk about it or it will take forever.

So who think the world will end by 2020? :P. Anyways. Here is the video for "F.E.A.R 2: PROJECT ORIGIN". Coolness.. The second one is actually coming out! If im not mistaken, its a continue sequel to the first one. If you think L4D is scary, wait till you play this game. Hah. Anyway.. For maximum FEAR. This is recommended:

1) Off all other audio, be it musics, radio, fan, tv, msn whatever.
2) Watch on Fullscreen (You've got to click the video.. which links you to gamespot site.. which can view in fullscreen)
3) Blast the volume
4) Watch it alone. ALONE!
5) Watch it at night, or... anywhere dark..

Here is the link for the video for the first F.E.A.R. I cant seem to embed it.. It just doesnt play.. So yea I just post the link. It came out like during Secondary 4. So yea, its pretty old already. But, I say its still scary. Not scary enough? Go get the game. Same instructions applies. For maximum FEAR. For this one, to fullscreen, right click and set zoom -> fullscreen.
http://www.gamespot.com/pc/action/fear/video/6100599/fear-official-movie-5?tag=videos;title;16

Dont fear the witch. Fear Alma.

P.S. Alma is the little girl.

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2:39 AM