Well, in the end I couldnt play in any of the matches for the squash team. Which I am seriously very disappointed... kind of... Put me in a squash team but I cant do anything to help. Except for referee-ing?... how slack... how pathetic... Want to do something but you just cant. Oh well, I cant make any difference anyway. How can I win when even they cant win? Absurd. Just like catching a dream that is so far away.
The reason I couldnt play was because im the number 8 in the sign up list... or smth like that.. unless the players seriously cant make it for match then am I allowed to play or so.. And the reason why I end up in number 8 when im suppose to be number 5 was because I told them I cldnt go for the first match on wednesday was because of the 12x100 sport heats and interact.. haiz.. Regrets? Maybe
I think now I understand how =[DA]=RecruitNoob felt during our clan friendly against [FFF]. None of us were willing to give up our space for him to try and take part in the match. Selfish arent we? We hurt to protect our selfish dreams.
Ugh.. IRRITATING COACH. Feel so neglected. Feel so irritated. First thing. Coach never came down and support/coach us for any other matches EXCEPT for today which is the last day for our match. Second thing. Coach didnt told us he was coming today to watch us and also to give Royston his racquet back from re-stringing. If he told us he was coming, WE would have put Roystan to play last, hopefully by the time getting his racquet to play! Instead, we place him the first player to play and he was so not used to the other racquet and didnt really performed! Third thing. Coach came down when we already lost 3 out of 5 sets. Like coming at that time is gonna make us win huh. Gosh. Look at other school teams. Their coaches are always there, observing matches and giving advices to the players. Look at ours. Came down only when we lost and out of the competition. Came down only when already lost 3 out 5 sets. How supportive. How helpful. But at least you came down once. And im a little grateful to that.
Well at least I did had fun there. And trained alot there too. And I've learnt many things too. like its not only about ur skills and physical fitness. Its about your will too. Its not only just simply telling yourself "I've got to win this". Its something more than that. Having the will to win a match really pushed me to the limit and somehow made me stronger. Thats what I learnt during today training. I somehow wanted to play for today match very badly. And kinda trained real hard for it before the match, hoping I may get the chance to get in, which sadly didnt. But I really learnt something meaningful there and improved. Thanks. =)
PW results. Well got B. Kind of expected around there or lower. Well. Good job my group! And thanks Mr. Ng for guiding us! Your guidance really helped us alot. Without you, I think we may get more worse results haha.
AND Grats BRO. He got into the top 10 student in his engineering school. Haha... Smart boy. =) You just gave me another reason to chase and keep running. And I thank God for giving him a chance. At least his future isnt ruin. But now, lets pray that the college wont impose the most harsh punishment on him.Ithank thee for answering mine and my fellow faithful friends prayers.
