Haix. Suddenly thought of this. Which is better, the past me or the current me? Its like in the past, i rarely talk to people and I'm kinda anti-social. But now I changed and I am trying to be more sociable. But it seems that there is a price to pay. When i try to be more sociable, I just hurt people more. We joked like as if the other party won't get hurt. We gossip around each people back. Always having motives that we just meant to tease people.
I mean, in the past, i never talk to people and its so much more peaceful in that way. I won't get involve in trouble or even create one. I won't even hurt people verbably that we now people always excuse ourselves by saying "It's just a joke". If they ever ask me to do something, I would just respect and comply them without even questioning. Just having a 'whatever' attitute.
So why am I trying? I honestly don't know. Maybe I don't want to be different or left out from the rest? Or maybe that life is more exciting compared to the boring introvert life? Sigh.
