zzz... had roadrun today... quite fun la... dey say it is more longer den 2.4km... but it seemed so short lor... hahaz... after the roadrun got a little beach cleaning... didnt picked up much though... our beach are just too clean to be true... so i slacked off...zz... yeah.. the rain came soon later... and every1 was dismissed..... was feeling abit wierd....kind of sad or disturbed..i dunno... so i stood under the rain...staring to the sea and sky.... den later julian, jok followed me to some rocky place just by the beach.... it was really windy and at dat time.. it was raining heavily alreadi...thanks guys... dey accompanied me dere and screamt and shouted to the sea.... felt better and great... the strong wind and heavy rain felt great too.... standing under the heavy rain...against the strong winds.... shouting to the sea... its just so nice... hahaz... anyway.. soon we left the area and head back where the others were....man.. we were all soaked and drench under the rain...hahaz.. thanks guys....

well... later followed julian and kelly to marine parade to do some "shopping" hahaz... after kelly went back home.... we went to mr zul house... yay! hahaz..i wanna buy bf2... ='( its so nice... must buy! hahaz... mrzul showed off his skills... yea.. his skills were great... later he let me play awhile... hahaz.. it was so fun... yay... well... soon we left for marina square to watch charlie and the chocolate factory... yep yep... it is really nice... i wana watch again =P hahaz... yea... after the movie, we walked around and later had a mini bdae party for mrzul...lol... a bdae party wif a tiny bdae ice cream... yep.. not bdae cake but bdae ice cream from swensens.. =) hahaz sang bdae song..hurray! lol... yea... later we had dinner at pastamania.... hahaz..

well back home... haiz... made some1 pissed off a moment ago.... yea.. guilty... felt really bad... apologised yet no reply... really freaking guilty....reading her blog just cant help but make me think dat.. i shld just shut up and stop talking crap n stop acting like an idiot... really crazy thought... but luckily she replied later on...yea... was relieved.... but the same feeling came back ... the same as the 1 from the morning after the road run... dis time...the feeling is like much more worst... just dunno how to express it... i really feel very suk rite now...very crap up... hate dis feeling... smth is really wrong wif me... geez... how i wished im freed from dis feeling...darn it... god..help me...



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