man....so stressed up n tired......so confused n fustrated......whY is life so complicated wif tough choices?!....its either i choose one or the other....n either of dem is gona hurt some1 or myself.... some1 told me..."ALWAYS sacrifice urself for the benefit of others".....i trusted dat line...n done the things i shld do....but at certain points of time....some things juzz distracted me.....i started to realize dat some ppl doesnt even care for wad i had done for dem...wad should i do?...continue to help dem while feeling so discontented?...but i made up my mind..... i dun need any1 to care for me....juzz do wadever i tink its right....n oso...case 2: wad if u fell in luv wif some1...n somebody else fell in luv wif u....wad shld u do?.... reject the person hu luv u? or juzz accept his/her luv n 4get the person u luv? for me....i dunno....i cldnt bear to break some1 heart....n couldnt 4get the person i luv....so i let nature take its course.... but is those solution a gd choice?....again...i dunno....guess i shld juzz treat every1 fair.... n treat dem as my gd frens.... or mayb i shld juzz go back into the dark life i used to walk?..sheesh....aint no idea wad to do...

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1:41 AM



WAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!! todae english n mother tongue test alreadi!!!... haix...so late alreadi but dunno y i cannot slp sia.....too stress perhaps?.......sianz sia....how to concentrate on my tests???.... hope can concentrate sia... important subjects leh!!! ><....later write compo half way den slp..... wa... touch wood sia....haix....been tryin to slp for 2 hours alreadi sia....still cannot slp.... den i go read book for 30 mins.....read until so tired....tried to slp....but still cannot.....so in the end...i end up playin computer games wif my bro....wahahahaha!!! thx bro for accompanyin me!!!!!...oh man... pls bless me for my test!!!

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6:21 PM



haix....todae is such a sad......after sch....joki was flirtin wif a sec 1 gal (not to be disclose) den he fell down......he sprained his poor right leg....lol.....den he so sad cannot go band....coz his mama force him home....hahaha.....den later worst case.....my very gd fren went berserk.....he was havin detention till 4.30....he was so bored so he kicked the dustbin around....den later teacher saw him...den gave him xtra detetion or offense slip........den he invoked his"SEED" ..... he shout until the whole sch can hear..... i heard him from outside the band room...den ran to find him in da detention clazz......he was shoutin...scoldin....destroyin everytin he find.......den teacher cannot tahan....den let him go......haix....

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2:51 PM